My Beautifully Complicated Life

When you are sitting in a room full of people; silent from the pain that you hide inside, sealed with a smile, you realize even when you are surrounded by people you feel lonely. But not just the simple loneliness that you feel when no one is around. The complexity of it is that no matter what your surroundings are, you feel lonely. Because a certain person isn’t around. That, is true loneliness. The deep hurt you feel inside.

When I say I want you I mean many things. I want you to care. I want you to keep your promises. I want you to always be there for me. I want you to accept me for who I am. I want you to know that I love you. I want us to be happy, together… I want you to know that my arms are always going to be open to you, ready for a warm embrace. I want you to realize that I am not what you want; I am what you NEED. But most of all I just want you, and me, to become an us. Forever locked in eachothers arms. I know my other half is out there. When I was born, I wasn’t born whole. I was put into this world to find the rest of me. Could you be the one? The one that makes me….Complete. Come find me. I’m certainly ready. Don’t make me wait any longer, because living with half of my heart is not the easiest situation. Everyday you are away I am fading farther and farther away from the life I know is right in front of me. I can feel it. I want you. Deep inside, I know you want me too…

You realize you are lucky when you feel like you are where you were meant to be in life, where you belong. Most improtantly, where you are the most happy. To this I say amen